so here we start with things i realized i knew about doors.
a door is an entry and an [...]]]>
of coarse by doing this i realized all these things i know about that relate to both personal and business.
so here we start with things i realized i knew about doors.
a door is an entry and an exit, and it is both simultaneously
nature makes some doors, man makes some doors, faeries make some doors and magic makes other doors
sometimes doors are windows and sometimes windows are doors
doors are boundaries
they are opening and closing
some doors are invisible to the eyes
some doors lead to unexpected places
some doors are colorful, some doors are missing altogether but are still there
some doors are old and some new
some doors have knockers, some have peep holes
doors can be potential for change
some doors are welcoming, some are creepy, some are haunted, some shiny
some doors lead to no where
doors are threshold of change
doors are liminal spaces
there are doors EVERYWHERE and we can use them to change everything. having a bad day, walk through a door and leave the yuck behind. need a new idea open a door and step through into the solution.
how can you start using doors to change everything in your life?
yay! rally! yay!
new friends yay!
new spelling of my name: amyxxx the x are silent and are kisses if you want them.
space and time are different at rally.
there are costumes for everything.
even normal things like going pee transform into magical experiences of release [...]]]>
yay! rally! yay!
new friends yay!
new spelling of my name: amyxxx the x are silent and are kisses if you want them.
space and time are different at rally.
there are costumes for everything.
even normal things like going pee transform into magical experiences of release and expelling and looking at the clouds fly by in the skylight.
food tastes better and you are either extremely hungry or very content.
pretzel sticks, which i normally don’t care about, are the best thing ever and maybe it’s just because they come in a wine glass but i think it might be more than that.
looking at other peoples projects, adventures and nest are inspirational even when i understand nothing about it.
yay! stars on the ceiling that sort of freak me out because they move but are super magical.
cushions on the floor and lots of blankets are super comfortable.
no matter how many times you wander around and notice things there are even more layers to see the next time around. it’s like things pop in and out of existence or different dimensions.
by working on yourself you really are working on everything else especially your business.
looking up and seeing people wander by in costume is delightful!
i really like listening to music, i rarely ever listen to music at home as so much is always being created in the basement. at this rally i listened to it all the time.
i created little nests for all the friends i kept collecting and gathering around my space.
friends whisper secrets all the time and at rally it’s easier to pay attention to the talking dragon.
tiny unicorns hold many secrets they aren’t ready to tell me.
you can totally create rally! at home, but an entire giant space filled with magical people who are also on rally! is super motivating and that energy is so delicious you just want to bottle it up and wear it everywhere.
people glow-even in the yuck and stuck there is a glow.
rally is simultaneously a celebration, a declaration, an endurance test and reshuffling of everything you though you knew.
taking 3 days to focus on who i am and what i want is so uncomfortable and yet so comforting-it’s crazy enlightening.
I’m working on getting pictures in here but really I just wanted this out so I didn’t forget about it again.
The Year 2+0+1+2=5 The HierophantA master teacher [...]]]>
I’m working on getting pictures in here but really I just wanted this out so I didn’t forget about it again.
The Year 2+0+1+2=5 The Hierophant
A master teacher year, time to step up into your power and speak your mind. Also indicative of a time of deep spiritual learning. Dust off the altar, the meditation cushions or your Sunday best and dive into something bigger than you.
There is struggle in the 5, a struggle of leaders or mentors or religions trying to impose beliefs upon you. Keep your mind and your heart and trust yourself-you know you better than anyone else. The energies here are on reflecting out; how can I change the world? What does it mean to be part of this? What is my lesson in this?
The true essence of the 5 is to find you inner knowingness-that piece of you beyond intellect, that piece that just knows. Not intuition, although that is part of it but more like a combination of intuition and intellect… a deep knowing in your bones, your cells, every fiber of your being.
If you haven’t experienced this yet in your life time this year will provide you ample opportunity to step into the energy and wear it around.
January 1+(2+0+1+2)=6 The Lovers
In the beginning we seek balance. Then we learn we have choices. With choice balance becomes harder.
There is so much wonky energy transferred onto The Lovers card so let’s strip it all away (hee hee) and come back to the energy or essence of the card.
You are human. Therefor you are, on some level, out of balance. Especially after trying to figure things out in the 5, The Hierophant may have thrown you for a bit of a whammy and you are still trying to understand.
The Lovers come in to help clarify, also to make things a bit more edgy with an additional choice. You can stay where you are, it’s grand and comfortable or you can jump on this chariot we are about to offer you and evolve.
It all comes down to ‘should I stay or should I go?’ This might make January a very annoying month of continuous decision making and struggle with what the hell do I want-I don’t even know anymore. This will pass.
February 2+(2+0+1+2)=7 The Chariot
The Chariot swoops in and takes us to the next place, the next level, the next grand adventure.
It’s a rickety contraption, driven by a white and black horse (balance sought in the 6 Lovers) and man o man if you’ve got enough guts to step into the chariot you had better hang on for dear life.
Part of the joy of The Chariot is the confusion of “am I driving this thing or am I just holding on for dear life and letting the horses lead”. In the end it matters little. And while you can try to control your destination, in the end you will arrive exactly where you are supposed to.
Allow yourself to give up the reigns to fate in February, to go on unexpected journeys, and/or step up despite the fear of the unknown.
March 3+(2+0+1+2)=8 Strength
This is one of my most favoritest cards in all tarot. Mainly because it is about how power does not come from strength over anything but simple from having the strength to be vulnerable allowing love to tame all foes.
Trust yourself. Trust your intuition. After stepping off the crazy-ass chariot ride you have more confidence and strength. Use it this month to move forward with ease.
Learning to step into this power / confidence takes time and trust. Set yourself up for success by deciding you have super powers and chopping tasks into bite size chunks so you can repeatedly win and add to your confidence.
Follow intuition. Don’t push so hard, save your energy, focus on love instead of force.
April 4+(2+0+1+2)=9 The Hermit
The Hermit does not teach us of reclusive-ness but rather of turning our focus inward so that we may then shine our light and focus outward. By retreating in we see the importance of connecting out. This is in complete contrast to The Hierophant-he turns out projecting, the Hermit turns in reflecting.
This is an opportunity to recharge your batteries, to learn of our inner workings, to discover something new about self and then turn all that new brilliance and knowledge out on the world. Shine the light in, to shine brighter out.
Fill your own cup first so you have the resources to heal the world.
May 5+(2+0+1+2)=10 Wheel of Fortune
wheel of fortune
Really others say everything needed so much better that I can “the times they are a changing” sing along in your nest Bob Dylan imitation.
Also useful here, the buddhist concept of non-attachment is super helpful. Because if everything is always changing, it’s be so much easier to allow the changes if we weren’t attached to our stuff and the outcome.
How can you ease into change before change takes it from you?
“let it be, let it be” let it go, let it go
(also at play 10=1+0=1 The Magician)
The power to transform and creation is with you this month. Find and follow awe. Know that in order for the law of attraction to work, you have to bring it through your very human self and if you are not connected to yourself-well why would anything you desire show up? You aren’t there to receive it-be there, be here, be present and accept the gifts-hee hee present/gifts 
June 6+(2+0+1+2)= 11 Justice
We pause to gather knowledge and learn before we decide the next step. A small, but active break in our learning curve.
We balance and weigh our learning thus far and we harness the power of the sword to bring truth and clarity into our awareness and to cut away what no longer serves.
(also at play 11=1+1=2 The High Priestess)
The energy of The High Priestess is also playing with you this month. Things are getting a bit heavy as we have The Hierophant as overall energy, combining with Justice and the High Priestess. Whoa! I’d stay clear of political conversations and anyone who is going to push you to deliver your opinion right now. You might need to retreat and make people come find you if they need things from you.
Sometimes silence is more powerful than speaking.
Read a lot this month.
July 7+(2+0+1+2)=12 The Hanged Man
Here we arrive at the willingness to take a stand and go completely out on a limb for it.
Things are becoming a bit uncomfortable as we strive forward, and although we desire to be of service there is a bit of hesitancy. In the end we realize we are ultimately here to serve and we make a bit of a sacrifice to our own comfort in order to help another.
The important thing to remember in this card is this was a choice: I choose to be in this awkward position so that I may learn and help and be of service.
I choose to look at the world with fresh eyes, and to do so I might need to hang from a tree by my foot (or better yet do a headstand).
(also at play 12=1+2=3 The Empress)
Plant seeds (literal and metaphorical) for future harvest, trust your gut and harvest the ripeness of the energy around you. Frolic in the experience of living fully and embrace that side of you that just wants to retreat into nature and live by her rule. Let you hair down and shake your hips to dispel some of the heavier energy this month.
August 8+(2+0+1+2)=13 Death
Death is the card where everything changes. You have sacrificed part of yourself so that you may evolve. Death is rarely ever literal death, most times it speaks of an ego bit or belief system we choose to transform (kill) in order to grow.
When death is active everything may feel like struggle. The more you can turn and face the fear, ask questions of your inner critics and focus on recharging your self, the easier this transformation can be.
Being confronted with your beliefs systems is never easy, asking them to leave so you can grow is harder yet. Know that old beliefs are trying to keep you safe so reassure them that you are safer here in this place, without them, and maybe find a new job for those inner critics.
(also at play 13=1+3=4 The Lord)
You might feel pulled to make grand plans, to overlook where you are going and examine where you have been. The Lord comes in to teach us about structure so that we can own it, use it and then find short cuts, allowing more time to build and expand and grow.
Anything you’ve ever wanted to do and not got it in yet? Start planning a way to make it happen. Put it on your calendar and make it a priority and watch how things line up to make it real.
September 9+(2+0+1+2)=14 Temperance
Wee! More balancing. This time with full artistic license blessed by spirit.
Make a mess. Get your inner scientist involved add artist license and become the alchemist, randomly flinging together elements in the pursuit of discovery of unknown things.
The more you can play, the more you can listen to that tiny inner voice to grander the experiments and pay off.
(also at play 14=1+4=5 go back to The Hierophant)
October 10+(2+0+1+2)=15 The Devil
It’s all about power baby. And if you live in the USA on an election year you have had it up past here with the power talk.
The essence of the Devil card is WAKE UP. The more conscious you can be the less likely you are to be lead astray by promises, or taken advantage of, or run over.
Stand up for yourself, stand in your power and just breathe. You don’t have to act or re-act, you can simply be and that is more powerful than any force.
The Devil wants you to believe you have no power and will offer you shiny things, lots of distractions, some substances to cloud your mind and when you come out of the fog and look around will laugh at your confusion of the destruction you have done.
Don’t follow the easiest path this month, stay grounded and alert and awake. If you need to escape reality plan times to indulge in movies marathon and ice cream splurges and make it deliberate and on your terms.
(also at play 15=1+5=6 go back to The Lovers)
November 11+(2+0+1+2)=16 The Tower
Change is knocking at your door. You can approach it and voluntarily change or you can resist it and have it stripped from you in all its icky destructiveness. I vote for being the 6 year old stacking blocks as high as they can and then knocking them all down with joy and delight. The other option is to have it sneak up on you and like the 2 year old be startled by the blocks falling and then cry a bit, but ultimately you get back into the game. Your third option is resist and then have a tornado or hurricane have it all ripped away in ugly yuckness.
What remains true in all these scenarios is a foundation. The base never completely falls apart, there is always a wee bit left to start over with.
The more we can actively (and maybe with a bit of glee) strip away the old bits the less that has to change ultimately.
Embrace the crazy. Take good care of yourself, and cackle like a crazy witch while stepping into your chariot.
And for god’s sake if you can vote in the USA do it or we may be doomed!
(also at play 16=1+6=7 go back to chariot)
December 12+(2+0+1+2)=17 The Star
My other most favoritest card in the tarot. A card filled with awe, vulnerability, light and dark. The star reminds us of our tiny insignificance and yet at the same time reminds of our huge reach and potential and connectedness to the universe.
Seeing the night sky we marvel in awe at how big, how strange, and yet familiar it all is.
We cast our wishes and used to believe that when we recited the “star light, star bright, first star I see tonight…” our wish would one day return to us.
It’s time to recapture our desire to shine, our innocence and awe. It is time to step up and open to the vulnerability and fragility of our life and to expand both inward and outward at the very same time.
To embrace and live in contradiction, knowing it is not at all contradictory.
You are more than you can even imagine and it’s time to stop living so small. There are endless variations and possibilities and the more you can open the more you can see and play in them.
(also at play 17=1+7=8 go revisit Strength)
Now go forth and make shit happen. Come back here to check in often, and share any thoughts, stories or adventures in the comments.
Through February 2nd you can also get 5 cards about the energy of your year for $20. Click here
more about the structure of tarot here
and my beginnings in tarot here
and then magic happens and the door to the world opens and aahhh! its so interesting!cars zooming by, a postman’s hand reaches in to place papery things in your care.
it gets all dark and quiet again until the post box owner’s hand opens the magic portal and [...]]]>
and then magic happens and the door to the world opens and aahhh! its so interesting!cars zooming by, a postman’s hand reaches in to place papery things in your care.
it gets all dark and quiet again until the post box owner’s hand opens the magic portal and removes the paper bits.
what a strange magical place beyond the dark…
as a post box you get to hear things, the grumble of your owner as they exclaim about junk mail, the delight in those strange red envelopes with hard disks in them, and extra excitement when things like birthdays and holidays roll by as brightly colored paper things arrive and bring smiles.
lately it seems like people don’t enjoy reaching into the dark interior of the mail box anymore.
even the mail person seems lost, bored and a bit sad. which makes the post box a bit lethargic and bereft.
good thing the post box knows how to fix the problem. add more of those brightly colored bits of paper!and look here are 3 options to help make the contents a post box holds more magical.
we have a secret mission to get 20 people to bring 6 months or a year of magic to their post box by January 30th.
option the first: post from the faeries!
get faery post! right now you can get a whole year! weee! a whole year of faery whispers!
it’s $123 (because that is a good number) you can pay all at once or in 3 payments of $42 (because that is the answer to life, the universe, and everything)
there is a whole secret page about faery post here
then if that is your option fill in the contact form and you will magically be take to pay pal button.
option the second: permission slips!
there is no write up on these [yet!] but basically the difference between these and faery post is the faeries talk to me and whisper secrets and permission slips are quotes, reminders and permission slips. they are much less work for me then faery post but just as delightful.
in fact you might think they are more delightful, because maybe you hate faeries.
or maybe you just need extra permission showing up in your mailbox.
permission slips come 1-2x per month you can get 3 month, 6 months or a year.
there is no secret page to read more about them yet because they are brand spanking new!
but you can get permission slips delivered using this form [it's the same as faery post so if you have wishes those will translate to permission slips].
click submit and be transported to the thank you now pay me page. oh and how much will you be paying? $22 for 3 month, $37 for 6months or $71 for one year! it’s a deal that goes away at the end of the month.
option the third: do it yourself!
you can make your own post cards and exchange them with friends and family.
i suggest getting a grab bag of images (they change monthly!) from Elizabeth Halt who takes awesome photos and then heading over to moo.com and making postcards or card cards!
i like moo.com even though they are a bit more expensive they are so easy to use it is worth paying money to not being frustrated and get it done fast! and getting lovely packages in the mail with hot pink yay! stickers.
yay!
YAY! One down 19 to go!
secret mission details and updates will be on the facebook page!
i totally knew today was monday.
i just totally forgot today was monday [well technically yesterday since it is [...]]]>
the last installment on time you can write your self a permission slip and get away with it.
i totally knew today was monday.
i just totally forgot today was monday [well technically yesterday since it is 12:06am on tuesday]
hope no one was waiting around for these last permission slip ideas, and if you were sorry for the wait. the combination of sick + holidays = amy forgetting what work is and where i am in the grand plan and what happens when.
but enough about all of that boring stuff. let’s talk about wacky ways to play with permission.
Mix it up:
Put on a wig
Search the house for clues (for 2 minutes wander and connect with items, things or words that pop out to you-write them down-then look all your findings you wrote down and ask what the clue is)
Sweep with an intention; maybe clearing, or removing or discovering
Put on a slip of permission [like an actual slip or dress] and do what you want because you are now the permission slip
Write yourself a postcard and mail it with a secret message
Book an appointment for a tarot or astrology reading
Practice alchemy: get a small clean bottle, combine a few drops of your favorite essential oils, add a bit of oil and voila, brand new yummy scent! wear it always.
Faery lights (Christmas lights here in America) always transform-plug in, hang up and enjoy the sparkles and color
Add things to your amazon.com wish list
If your library has online list add books you’ve been meaning to read
Put on something beautiful
Curse like a sailor, talk like a pirate or try on a fake accent
After making your morning smoothie, apply part of it to your face as a face mask full of anti-oxidants
Wear a tiara and make proclamations
tell me more! help me think of ways to mix it up, add chaos or play or creativity to your day.
you can buy permission to pamper here and explore more ways to add calm and pampering to your days.
you can also check out a new thing! permission postcards, it’s part of amy tries to save the post office and while the write up is kinda lame the post cards are super wonderful.
because no one but junk mail [and movie places] use them.
see people had forgot how to write with pen and paper, cards got ridiculously expensive, people had no time to make their own cards out [...]]]>
because no one but junk mail [and movie places] use them.
see people had forgot how to write with pen and paper, cards got ridiculously expensive, people had no time to make their own cards out of glue and found bits. so they all used email and ecards and never bought stamps.
now mail workers-who used to have important jobs getting important things to people-feel sad because mainly they carry junk mail. they also carry netflix and sometimes contemplate what movie might they be putting in your mail box today, which give them a little bit of pleasure.
mail workers also have boring jobs because nothing with giant words or stickers or lumpy bits sealed with a x kiss x travels by mail very often anymore. just credit card ap after credit card ap.
so let’s save the post office and entertain the mail people together!
option the first: post from the faeries!
get faery post! normally i sell faery post in 1 mon, 3 mon or 6 mon subscriptions but right now you can get a whole year! weee! a whole year of faery whispers!
it’s $123 (because that is a good number) you can pay all at once or in 3 payments of $42 (because that is the answer to life, the universe, and everything)
there is a whole secret page about faery post here
then if that is your option fill in the contact form and you will magically be take to pay pal button.
option the second: permission slips!
there is no write up on these [yet!] but basically the difference between these and faery post is the faeries talk to me and whisper secrets and permission slips are quotes, reminders and permission slips. they are much less work for me then faery post but just as delightful.
in fact you might think they are more delightful, because maybe you hate faeries.
or maybe you just need extra permission showing up in your mailbox.
permission slips come 1-2x per month you can get 3 month, 6 months or a year.
there is no secret page to read more about them yet because they are brand spanking new!
but you can get permission slips delivered using this form [it's the same as faery post so if you have wishes those will translate to permission slips].
click submit and be transported to the thank you now pay me page
option the third: do it yourself!
you can make your own post cards and exchange them with friends and family.
i suggest getting a grab bag of images (they change monthly!) from Elizabeth Halt who takes awesome photos and then heading over to moo.com and making postcards or card cards!
i like moo.com even though they are a bit more expensive they are so easy to use it is worth paying money to not being frustrated and get it done fast! and getting lovely packages in the mail with hot pink yay! stickers.
yay!
the moral of today’s story is…
the post office needs help staying open and you need better mail.
make it happen.
hatesHateshates it
so last week i gots the flu. the one with the soar throat that morphs into the shiver me timbers fever that morphs into the i am so sore sitting on this chair for 8 hours piled under blankets hurts. yes blankets hurt. and sitting, it hurts too, but [...]]]>
hatesHateshates it
so last week i gots the flu. the one with the soar throat that morphs into the shiver me timbers fever that morphs into the i am so sore sitting on this chair for 8 hours piled under blankets hurts. yes blankets hurt. and sitting, it hurts too, but moving hurts more.
so then it sort of cleared up and went away (for like an hour).
and then it morphed into i have snot but it’s not the kind that drips and runs it’s the kind that is a solid presence in each of your lymph nodes and drainage passages. it’s the sort that makes you want to cry it hurts so bad filling everything up but not moving anywhere.
then i had to go to the dentist. which helped move compacted snot by pressure washing and scraping of the teeth.
but then it moved into my eyeball you guys! and now i have what is probably a viral form of maybe pink eye?!?!? all i know is there was redness and gross things draining out of tear ducks. poor ducks.
so today i wake up and 2 things happen i notice eye is not so red but it has moved into both eyeballs. so yay for less scary red! yuck for crusty, puss filled, itchy eyeballs.
also sore throat is back with the i can’t swallow pain.
guess where i am going at 4pm?
to the freaking doctor to find out wtf is up with this morphing flu of misery.
misery people. misery. did i say i hate being sick yet, cause omg! i hate it.
now i am thankful for all the time that i have got to read, and all the netflix streaming i have been able to zone out in front of but i am done! i wants my life back, full of bits of energy and walking omg! i miss walking. and doing things without groaning or moaning or forgetting what the hell i was doing before my brain was exploding with red eyeballs and cement snot.
oh so back to the story part… see what has kept me sane has been using my permission to pamper ebook. watching the netflix while working on my toes (head,neck and sinus reflexes) and making foot baths or bath baths like every single day, some times twice a day (that took a big permission slip). permission to take care of me so i can heal-with nice things that can sometimes be called pampering.
thank you ebook, i made you for other people and never really expected to use you myself but whew! you have saved me!
Email a friend a gratitude message
Laugh-find [...]]]>
Here are some permission ideas, reminders, and suggestions.
Permission to Connect (or not to connect)
Email a friend a gratitude message
Laugh-find something on youtube or those cat websites if you need help
Tell really bad jokes with friends (or better yet to strangers in elevators)
Make a date to connect for tea, coffee lunch or dinner, or a walk
Write a postcard-we rarely get real mail and it’s such a treat
Write a note to your future self and leave it in an envelope with to be opened date
Sit and snuggle with your pet
People watch in the space you are in, just observe
When stuck in traffic say nice things to the other people in the cars around you and see if that changes everything
Turn around and walk away if you see someone you don’t want to connect with
Send and email, or a postcard, to friends or family with a favorite recipe
Make list of fun activities you love to do and who it would be fun to do them with- consult and plan things from this list often
Plan future vacations in your journal
Leave flowers or origami cranes or other magical treasures on door steps or desks of neighbors
Plan a surprise un-birthday party for someone you love
as always I would love to hear your ideas and ways to connect in 5 minutes or less. i’ll meet you in the comments!
permission to pamper is over here for $25 and makes a perfect holiday present.
Permission for Quiet Time
Journal
Stare at your vision board (or start [...]]]>
Permission for Quiet Time 
Journal
Stare at your vision board (or start collecting images for a vision board)
Sip a cup of tea
Doodle
Daydream
Read your intentions/goals/affirmation
Read your purpose or mission statement
Lay in savasana
Elevate your feet above your head
Light a candle
Use aromatherapy
Listen to a chapter in a book on tape
Read a magazine
Read a chapter in a book
Just sit-do nothing
Take a tiny catnap
Yawn
Get a coloring book for you and do a page
Start a puzzle-leave it up so you can take 5 minutes often to play
Do research about things just for you, classes you want to take, vacations, clothes, etc
Read a blog entry or two
as always i’d love to hear what you do that take almost no time and gives you some peace and quiet.
the permission to pamper is up and ready for play! follow me to read more!
dear new e-commerce site. i don’t understand what you want from me. please speak in less technical ways so i do not have to keep harassing my poor web goddess.
me
rawr!rawr!rawr!dear me.
calm the hell [...]]]>
dear current e-commerce site. you are stinky. and you are dumb. and i think i hate you.
dear new e-commerce site. i don’t understand what you want from me. please speak in less technical ways so i do not have to keep harassing my poor web goddess.
me
rawr!rawr!rawr!
dear me.
calm the hell down. go stretch or walk or do some jumping jacks of glee. this is not a problem, everything will be shiny someday. soon.
with love,
your future self of next week